I am sitting at a coffeeshop this Sunday morning feeling utterly defeated. There is a soreness in my muscles, in my feet, which have spent a weekend holding up the weight of a limitless girl, and I am being physically crushed by the demands I've placed on my body. Right now, I am dragging my … Continue reading Sunday leftovers
‘This is Not My Happly Place’
Sticky tones offer no solace to a girl who thought she loved music. Inconvenience is the enemy of luck and so of imagined possibility, so of self. I am frustrated by eyes that sag to tell folks of my tired burdens. So I’ll glue false eyelashes to my slick skin and … Continue reading ‘This is Not My Happly Place’
Alabama, 2019
Five months far along in the full belly of May; it was a tongue-in-cheek spring, a true false spring, a spring of myth and sick jokes; they tore us out from inside of ourselves with no sense of irony, they laughed in the face of the choices we make, stealing and trading them for indignities … Continue reading Alabama, 2019
Thoughts approaching Mother’s Day
Some thoughts I had today. It often seems to me as though much of the mental and emotional labor necessary to keep any relationship or household functioning still falls upon women. This is reinforced, of course, by past reading that I’ve done but also first and secondhand experience. The work of organizing, making to-do lists, … Continue reading Thoughts approaching Mother’s Day
Stranded sandwich
I can finish this meal entire, leave you only crumbs for company. It's how I was raised. To make not find room for each deserted morsel in this whisper of a belly. To never leave a sandwich stranded, erect refugee camps in pockets of flesh. Soon I'll balloon with the weight of what this temple … Continue reading Stranded sandwich
Authenticity in relationships, and what we can do without
If there’s ever a time when an introvert is at a disadvantage being alone, it’s when she’s in an unfamiliar place. Every time I've moved to a new city and made new friends, it’s been an uphill battle for me, and I’ve always envied my more extroverted friends who are less afraid, less apologetic about … Continue reading Authenticity in relationships, and what we can do without
‘journey to the center of me’
In the dip of my suspension bridge heart lies a letter to my next incarnation; it reads: The problem of Time is solved by becoming, we are Lodged between beginnings like foodstuff in our teeth. May they seek earthly things like spices and the scent of green. May their harrowed orbits unravel and lay flat … Continue reading ‘journey to the center of me’
Tale of a City: Burrowing pains
The Tenderloin isn’t so bad early in the morning. At the most productive time of day, 10 a.m., it can actually be quite pleasant, so long as you’re walking through with the intent of leaving it. In the Tenderloin at night, there are no sights for your eyes to hold and so they’re glued to … Continue reading Tale of a City: Burrowing pains
A birthright
My mother was pregnant when she came to the US nearly 20 years ago. Too pregnant, in fact; the most far along you could be to board a plane was five months, and my mom was going on seven. But the visa alone had taken years to acquire, so the doctor wrote a note assuring … Continue reading A birthright
